I had known that even before I started, but I had done it anyway and now the only other boy in the room was looking at me and asking what I was doing, because it was weird. I didn't want to be the weird one in this place, but the bed was too soft and I knew I wouldn't sleep in it and for a second I struggled to come up with an answer that didn't sound as stupid as that. I didn't have one, though. I had nothing. I shrugged, then hated myself for it, because it was what Peter would do if he didn't have an answer. He would shrug carelessly, dismissively, then suggest some new game and the boys would forget anyone had asked him a question at all.
I would not be like that.
"I haven't slept in a bed in a long time," I said, deciding to be honest. I wasn't Peter. I didn't have to be like him. I didn't have to lie. If the other boy thought I was weird, then he would think I was weird. I couldn't change that. "It's too soft. I don't like how it feels. I couldn't sleep last night."
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I had known that even before I started, but I had done it anyway and now the only other boy in the room was looking at me and asking what I was doing, because it was weird. I didn't want to be the weird one in this place, but the bed was too soft and I knew I wouldn't sleep in it and for a second I struggled to come up with an answer that didn't sound as stupid as that. I didn't have one, though. I had nothing. I shrugged, then hated myself for it, because it was what Peter would do if he didn't have an answer. He would shrug carelessly, dismissively, then suggest some new game and the boys would forget anyone had asked him a question at all.
I would not be like that.
"I haven't slept in a bed in a long time," I said, deciding to be honest. I wasn't Peter. I didn't have to be like him. I didn't have to lie. If the other boy thought I was weird, then he would think I was weird. I couldn't change that. "It's too soft. I don't like how it feels. I couldn't sleep last night."