I shook my head as I scooted closer, then let the blanket cover my legs as I leaned my head against the back of the couch.
"Earlier," I said. "At the party. We were outside on one of the benches and Eddie said... we were talking about Peter and he said if Peter came here he would never let him hurt me and I... I believed him."
I didn't know if I was explaining it right. I didn't know how to say what that meant, believing someone would do anything to keep me safe, how important it was after so long of always being the caretaker. For once, someone wanted to look after me and it was so much more than that, but that was the moment that had unstuck my tongue.
"I just said it," I admitted, smiling. "It was like the words came from somewhere other than my brain."
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"Earlier," I said. "At the party. We were outside on one of the benches and Eddie said... we were talking about Peter and he said if Peter came here he would never let him hurt me and I... I believed him."
I didn't know if I was explaining it right. I didn't know how to say what that meant, believing someone would do anything to keep me safe, how important it was after so long of always being the caretaker. For once, someone wanted to look after me and it was so much more than that, but that was the moment that had unstuck my tongue.
"I just said it," I admitted, smiling. "It was like the words came from somewhere other than my brain."